I’m afraid my ob/gyns think I must have been abused. I’m 2 for 2 in crying immediately upon being touched during an exam and today completely asked her to stop. If I have an ovarian or uterine cyst I won’t know for at least another year. I may have never been abused or raped physically, but I’ve never been comfortable with myself as a woman. Deeper issue here? Maybe.
I don’t want to be a person anymore. I’m requesting to take the fatal status in a car crash away from someone else today. Then it will be a tragedy because of a horrific accident, not a tragedy because I fell a victim to the weakness hidden in my own mind.
"Sometimes I regret being nice, apologizing when I didn’t do anything wrong, and for making unworthy people a priority in my life"
"People never quite get it, the ones surrounding you, but we do." They say. The demons that fill your mind and take control of you because they made you believe they were the only ones who understood. My dear they are wrong… Look around and see the people who love you, they are there.
BLACK VICTORIANS | 1880s
Dr. Ella Mae Piper was born in Brunswick; Georgia (near the Florida line) March 8; 1884; the only daughter of Ned Bailer and Sarah Williams. Mrs. Piper died on June 13. 1954.
"I want girls to just be able to feel like they can do whatever the fuck they want. You can be really smart and really fun, and not be afraid to be funny. Girls forget that they have so many facets."
"It is so hard to leave—until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world."
"To tell someone not to be emotional is to tell them to be dead."